I'm not even going to try to explain why&how I didn't post anything on here for so long.
Lately I've been feeling very down&tense, maybe because of the tests that I kind of failed. Well at least I think.The thought of having to go through more tests, or even worse to do this year over again is something I can barely stand. There's just too much pressure, too many hopes on my shoulders, I really have the duty to get this degree.
I'm still trying to lose weight, but it's been another big fail too. One of my friends is staying at my place, and we're eating all the time. I'm trying to be light on this topic, but this is really upsetting me so much. My goal is to lose around 6kilos, and I don't even know what to do anymore. I've tried all the diets you could possibly think of, I've tried working out, I've even thought about surgery. It seems nothing works well on me. I'll probably just try to eat healthy(which I usually do anyway) but in very small portions, and start working out again.
And I'm having feelings for someone who doesn't.
How much of a nice mixture is that? I'm asking you.
Still, life goes on, I'm holding on and not giving up. I'm not going to pretend everything's fine, I don't feel good, I cry when I'm alone at nights, which had not happened to me in years. But I live it as a challenge, and even through these times I know how lucky I am, and I want to seize the moment.
I believe you can fight sadness&depression, and I'm not going to let it win.
Weapons are friends, smiles and food(ohwell).