lundi 30 janvier 2012

So it was my birthday.

I wish I had something to talk about. Well I do, I have plenty of things I'd like to talk about but I feel like a video would be more appropriate when it comes to these subjects.
Then maybe I'll just let my fingers run on the keyboard and see what it turns out like.
So it was my birthday on the 28th of January. I didn't properly celebrate it, I haven't celebrating my birthdays since I turned 16. To be completely honest with you, the previous two weeks I felt extremely tense, anxious and depressed, to see the dates on the calendar not taking account of my desire to remain 19 forever.
I didn't think I'd actually be that depressed about my birthday, but I am. Completely. And now, to think that next year I'll turn 21 is... almost causing me physical pain. I cannot even really explain why I feel this way though. Is it because of death? probably. Also because of all the youth I feel that is running away, and to know that I have to accomplish some things before I turn 30. 30. Oh my god, this sounds awful.
However, I feel kind of relieved now, because it is behind me. I guess I'll panic again in.. september.
Here in Paris it's getting really cold, and we'll maybe have snow soon which is so exciting. I don't usually like snow, but for some reasons I really want to see it this year. Be ready for the pictures of a snowy Paris if this happens.
So far, 2012 has been nice. Well, friends haven't been the best and I feel like January was a wasted month but hopefully I'll get back on the tracks in February. The positive point is that I lost weight, am motivated and find it   incredibly easy to eat healthy, to work out and be patient. I'm also more organised, I study my japanese more, but I don't read enough. Sadly. I also have to stop missing classes. I've already missed 3days of school in two weeks.  Badbadbad. I think I'm not doing too bad with Youtube either right?
Hopefully, in a two weeks, the 20th I'll be in Roma. Ah Roma. And hopefully I'll be able to go either to Praha or Sevilla the 25. I miss travelling so much, I miss concerts so much too.
I'm looking for great movies to watch, any recommendations ? :)

This was one of the most all over the place entry ever, but I hope it wasn't too boring.

dimanche 22 janvier 2012

Am I becoming annoying with Budapest? I don't think you can ever get annoying with such a beautiful place. It also allows me to repeat once more that freedom is the most important thing we have in the world, and that we should fight for it everytime it is endangered.


A game: say something. Close your eyes and say something. Anything, a number, a name. Like this (she closes her eyes): Two, two what? Two women. What do they look like? Wearing black. Where are they? In a park. . . . And then, what are they doing? Try it, it's so easy, why don't you want to play? You know, that's how I talk to myself when I'm alone, I tell myself all kinds of stories. And not only silly stories: actually, I live this way altogether.

André Breton.

dimanche 15 janvier 2012

Times like these I'll always remember.

This week end was absolutely sunny here in Paris, and I had free time for the first time in... well quite a few months. I also try to loose weight, and today since I had pasta, I decided to go for a walk. I walked about 6kms, which is quite satisfying.
I love Paris so much, it's not even worth trying to explain how much and why. But these times I spend on my own, walking in the streets, are priceless. You can feel past,present and futur all at once in the air, and everywhere you lay your eyes on, you find beauty.
Paris is the most beautiful city in the world to me, and will always be my precious one. The place where I started to decide what I wanted for my life, where I started to embrace joy, happiness, and who I really am.
I don't know if I ever mentionned it on here, but I strongly believe that God has a mission planned for each of us, and I can feel more than ever, that my duty is to be only smiles & kindness.
I took some pictures, thinking that you'd like to see what it looks like to take a walk in Paris.

samedi 7 janvier 2012

There are 364 un birthdays a year.

Random post of the week end.
My first week of tests in uni is over. Still one left to go, but all in all, it wasn't that bad. I almost am sure of my decision to stop korean, so that I can focus on my japanese studies. It's a little bit upsetting, because I really like tne korean language, but nothing prevents me from learning it on my own, now that I have the basics.
I really need more time to study&work my japanese. Really.
My friends got me my christmas/unbirthday present which is so cool&lovely. A polaroïd :D
I have nothing really interesting to tell you, since I have been spending most of my time sleeping&studying.
But I recently purchased some jewelry on ebay, and I thought I could show you what I got.:)

It's only a few, and each piece cost me around 3 or 5$.
And yesterday I also ordered some clothes on Gmarket. It had been almost one year since I last made a real order, and I must say it felt quite weird to spend that much money for clothes. But oh well. Unfortunately we cannot run around naked right?
Here are few of the things I ordered:

I'll probably make a haulvideo when I receive the order. :)
Now I'm going, I have to study the Heian era and how buddhism became big in Japan.
I hope you all have a nice week end guys. ~