A weird&late merry christmas.

Hurray Christmas is over. We're officially done with Christmas this year. Life can go on, things get back to normal let's forget about all that christmas-y mood that I just cannot bring myself to like.

If you like Christmas and celebrate it, I hope you had a nice one.
If like me you don't, I hope it wasn't too bad or that you had a cosy nice and pleasant day doing whatever it is that you enjoy doing.

My Christmas wasn't good, let's just stick to that. It wasn't horrible but definitely not good. A few people managed to make it slightly better, and now that's it's over, I'm feeling free and relieved.

I didn't celebrate it anyway, none of my parents even put up a tree and clearly the Christmas mood was nowhere to be found. The 24th went by quickly and quietly, me being exhausted because of stress and running. And on the 25th, my sister and I decided to go biking, which didn't look at first like a great idea because the weather was terrible, but eventually turned out to be a great iniative.

My hometown is located in the south of France and I live something like 20minutes away from the sea, walking time. I used to be able to see the blue waves from my biology classroom in highschool and I remember my father teaching me how to swim when I was fairly young, then going everysummer with friends to the beach, climbing rocks and little cliffs to then jump into the sea.

Living in Paris is amazing and I don't regret leaving the south of France at all , no, not even a little, but the sea... I always end up missing it. And on this sad Christmas day, being with my sister witnessing the huge waves crushing on the rock, strangely enough put my mind at peace.

I'll be honest, it's not easy nor nice, having a bad Christmas and not being able to enjoy this time of the year with your family, and it's been rough on me this year. I cried a lot, and I'm still feeling a bit under the shock of everything, but little things can make a big difference. Such as this afternoon spent biking and admiring the sea, coming back and forth, never giving up. 

Now, I'm not bitter and I hope that you got to enjoy this Christmas and spend it with people who were happy to celebrate it with you. If not, I hope that whatever you did, it was a good day, just like any other day, because clearly, we're making too much of a big deal out of Christmas. It's just Jesus' birthday after all!